| Thursday, March 03, 2005 |
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| This week, I have been lazy tahap dewa. All I've been doing is sleep and watch TV. In addition, I haven't touched my Chino for months! I guess I have reach the stage where I've had enough of life like this and I just don't care about anything anymore. And yes, that includes studying. Honestly, I never see myself as a smart and bright student whom my sisters and brother can emulate and I don't definitely deserve the praises or that proud feelings my mom and my dad have for me for being the only daughter who did remarkably well in her academics. Most of the time, it almost feel like I'm cheating on them. I don't know how the heck I got straight As for all my exams in primary and high school (but I do have this notion that the examination board pulled down the curve so low that I who never score pass 70 in Biology managed to get an A2 in SPM). I don't know how the heck I passed my scholarship interview and did just okay in SAT and my essay entrance exam that I ended up here in UW-Madison. If I were to measure my IQ, it will never reach beyond extreme. Short to say, I am just a mediocre girl who happened to be lucky. But college life is harsh because this is when lucky just won't work. Therefore, as for a mediocre girl like me, my stupidity becomes more obvious as the semester goes by. What's worse is that other people think that I am bright when in reality I am just a shadow of my ownself. This is my limit. This is how much I can do. So, stop thinking of me so highly. For I am just an ORDINARY. |
| posted by efarina @ 2:08 AM |
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