| Friday, June 10, 2005 |
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So far..only enjoying a liitlle bittt of my summer holiday. It is very very hot here. Couldn't bear it. My legs are itchy, red marks are showing. I hate the smell of the cats lying around my house. I hate the 'lantai yang berpasir' eventho I've mopped it twice already in one week. And I get annoyed easily. Paranoia is another thing. I know my body. I don't mind you and other people insulting it. But do you really have to point it out over and over again? It makes me sick. I feel like I am a garbage among all those shits. For an instant, I wish I could instantly fly back to Madison and be in the comfort of my own room. I still wish for it. Can't you remember I was like this before and this is the real me?
I am at the lowest point in my life, and I am making up stories not to meet my friends. Cheers to my dad, he is always there to sense something is wrong and make a small effort to see me happy. Thank you for being my father. Thank you for the short stop at Hard Rock. Thank ou for not insulting my body. I will love you always for that. In this world, he is the only one I could really look up at. |
| posted by efarina @ 6:19 AM |
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