| Saturday, July 31, 2004 |
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| Another upsetting result from the voters of AF. Linda has been voted out of the academy in the 8th week concert. I have no further comments but to say that she is a bright shining star. Her loss in the academy surely will make the show more boring because out of the 6 people left, only 3 can be good entertainers. And out of 3, only 1 are entitled as an excellent performer. Even the teachers are upset with the result. Looks like many Malaysian audiences keep making the false votes, eh? It's better to just stick with American Idol, people. |
| posted by efarina @ 12:44 PM |
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| Wednesday, July 28, 2004 |
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Dear Father,
I talk less to you than I do with Mother. But I don't know why I have this strong attachment of feeling towards you. You didn't shed a single tear when you send me off to study abroad. I cried when I see Mother crying. I cried again everytime I read Mother emails and her Raya card she sent me. But I don't know why, it is you the one I remember more.
I remember you forcing me to read the English newspaper out loud in front of you every night when I was in kindergarten. You bought English books and novels for me without me asking you to. You bought video tapes, CDs and movies of my favorite out of my surprise. And you still make that surprise by sending me pocket money when I never ask you to.
I remember watching Armageddon. How tears came flooding out of my eyes during those two scenes when the father had to leave the daughter. And I will cry again - no matter whether the show is funny, happy or sad - when a father died or when a father has to say goodbye to his child(ren). Yet, I never shed a tear if it is the mother who is leaving. I don't know why.
When I sit here listening to the songs I play, I remember you; because you are the reason why I am listening to these rock songs. When I was at the restaurant, I wish you were there for I can order anything I want and you'll pay. When I was at the soccer game, I wish you were there too because you know the game more than me. When I see Harrison Ford, I remember you because your eyes are just like him.
You are not like other fathers who ask with whom I am going out with and where am I going. You never fuss when I used your car 80% of the time. You never ask for my exam results. You never question about my personal life. We talk on the phone for only 10 minutes. At home, we never talk unless we need to. I envy friends who can joke and talk about anything to their dads. But still, you are the one I miss most.
My father. My idol in silence. Shhh... he never know, but I am who he is. Like father, like daughter.
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| posted by efarina @ 11:50 PM |
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| Monday, July 26, 2004 |
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The game between Manchester United and Bayern Munich for US Tour yesterday ended with 0-0 during the 90 minutes match time. Bayern Munich won 4-2 on penalties. It was a bit disappointing not being able to see Manchester United stars such as Nistelrooy, Ronaldo, Neville brothers, Scholes and Giggs in action but that did not deteriorate the hadcore fans of football from filling up Soldiers Field yesterday. Photos have been uploaded. Just click on the photos link above. Some pictures are a bit blurry due to sunlight and zooming problem.
I am not going to elaborate more in this game. All I'm saying is that it was a good experience. The heat, the game, the crowd. My first time watching a live football game. To read reports, go to www.manutd.com.
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| posted by efarina @ 4:16 PM |
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| Friday, July 23, 2004 |
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It just ain't the same old ways have changed new days are strange, is world insane?
If love and peace is so strong why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations dropping bombs chemical gasses filling lungs of little ones with ongoing suffering
As the youth die young so ask yourself, is the loving really gone so I can ask myself, really What is going wrong with this world that we living in Whatever happened to the values of humanity? Whatever happened to the fairness and equality Instead of spreading love we spreading animosity Lack of understanding leading us away from unity That's the reason why sometimes I'm feeling under That's the reason why sometimes I'm feeling down Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found It's just months away before the new presidential election. Bush or Kerry? Who are these Americans voting for? I may not be an American, I can't vote and I might as well not care about it, but I've seen on the media how one manpower can affect the whole world. I have seen people marching down the mall and sleeping in the middle of the cold in front of my own eyes, chanting and protesting on matter they may or may not fully understand. Again I ask, Bush or Kerry? Does it matter? Will the suffering stop? The questions are yours to be answered. Start spreading love and peace. Cry for a moment. Have a little mercy. And have more faith in God. I rest my case. People killing, people dying, children hurt and you hear them crying Can you practice what you preach, and would you turn the other cheek Father, father help us send some guidance from above Because people got me questioning Where is the love? |
| posted by efarina @ 2:33 PM |
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| Thursday, July 22, 2004 |
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My day today is totally wasted. I promise myself to study but hell.... I was too distracted to concentrate on my textbook. Due to fatigue, I couldn't make myself to get up this morning even though my housemate has attempted to wake me up twice and I had set my alarm clock, alas missing my accountancy lecture today.
Went to Hilldale in the afternoon for shopping and I gotta say, Marshall's Fields is officially my new favorite place to shop! Classy, more upgrade and more elegant style of mall I would say, they sell better quality branded clothes than those at West Towne. Brand, my friend, is all that matter.. hahaha.
Tonight, I did three movie marathon back-to-back starting with Legally Blonde (first time watching), then A Knight's Tale (3rd/4th time watching) and finally Ocean's Eleven (3rd/4th time watching). My day couldn't be more wasted than this, could it? Below are some lines from A Knight's Tale that I find particularly amusing:
Jocelyn: Better a silly girl with a flower than a silly boy with a horse and a stick.
Wat: It's called a lance. Hello?
William Thatcher: If I could ask God one thing, it would be to stop the moon. Stop the moon and make this night and your beauty last forever.
Wat: Uh, betray us, and I will fong you, until your insides are out, your outsides are in, your intrails will become your extrails I will w-rip... all the p... ung. Pain, lots of pain.
Jocelyn: I dream of poetry, speak poetry to me.William: Your breasts... are beneath your throat.
"I will fong you"? Hahaha... what does 'fong' exactly mean? One funny word don't you think?
I wish I'd lived in that era, and feel how it is to see knights jousting on their horses, wearing pretty gowns and dancing with one of the handsome knights. Ahh... if only dreams are real.
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| Wednesday, July 21, 2004 |
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I have the look like I am about to pass out anytime soon. I have black circles, and my eyes are bloody red. Worse, it hurts. I feel like there are two needles being poked into my eyes. My body aches, and my energy to stay sane is wearing out. The reason? My accountancy class workload, my job and my sudden imsomnia disease. I recalled only sleeping for less than 3 hours on Monday (4.30 am - 7.15 am) because I would be having my accountancy midterm that morning. I finished studying by 1 am but I guess me worrying too much prevented me from falling asleep. Later in the evening, I had to work for 4 hours (standing all the time). And yesterday, I have a light sleep before waking up in the middle of the morning to continue on the new chapter and do my homeworks. I could only get back to my bed by 6 am, and had to be up again at 8 am. After class, I went straight to the mall to find some stuffs but I swear I can just fainted right there in the middle of concourse since I didn't have the energy to stay awake anymore. Now, I have another new chapter to read and tons of questions to answer after that. My eyes is still aching. I am not sure I can handle it. I may as well just don't give a shit about it. Life as an undergraduate... not so glorious after all.
I'll start writing fancy stuffs again once I regain my consciousness.
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| posted by efarina @ 9:41 PM |
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| Tuesday, July 20, 2004 |
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This land is foreign. Yet, this is where she stay. She hated it, but then she fell in love with it. For the breeze of the wind and the smell of the air is... new and different. Soon after, she laid her eyes on him. And in her vivid mind, she saw the pink sakura falling down and the oasis filled with fresh water. She knew it was him. Him that made her happy. Him that made her love. Still, she was invinsible. No matter how close, he was out of her reach. But she smiled, and she laughed. For the presence of him around was good enough.
One day, she discovered pain. He was taken. She's lost her love. And the vision of sakura falling vanished. She mourned, and she sulked. No amount of smile could cover her sadness. Not even the comfort thought of walking in the rain. His presence jilted her. She felt stupid. She felt ugly. But most of all she felt defeated. And she began to hate this land again.
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| Saturday, July 17, 2004 |
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On another topic. Today is the last day of Maxwell Day Street Sale. The crowd was overwhelming than yesterday. All shops are trying to sell their final stocks. BOP definitely went crazy! This retail shop who sell expensive products made in European countries such as Diesel, Miss Sixty and Juicy Coutoure have products are as cheap as $5 ( the price yesterday was $10). From BOP, I bought an army camouflage jacket for $10, original price was $99, and a Diesel jeans for $25, original price was $130! From Urban Outfitters, I bought a Levi's capri for only $15. So, all in all I only spent $50 for products that before sale worth nearly $350. Though I am a lil bit upset because I couldn't find a red top/jersey to wear for Manchester United US Tour next Sunday (I still have no idea what to wear). As for now, I declared bankruptcy due to the series of shopping I've made in the past weeks. Needs are hard to be fulfilled, ain't it? Gotta go work guys. Laters.
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| posted by efarina @ 4:29 PM |
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Bengang giler weh..... this is one result from Akademi Fantasia that I am NOT satisfied with. Zarina out? Whuttaheck? She is the best singer compared to all the other women contestants. I have no idea how the voters manipulate their polls that she eventually is at the bottom rank. I guess this "trying to save somebody else" scheme is a total bullshit. Now, one of the not-so-good-singers has the second highest vote. Or is it she is not pretty enough for some people? It pisses me off sometimes the way Malaysian voters think. So who will be in the Top 5 now? I would have root for Zahid, Zarina, Bob, Linda and Adam. But with Zarina out, I couldn't think of any other contestants good enough to replace her.
It's odd that I am addicted to this whilst I am far away from Malaysia. Ah..well, whatever. It is something I do when I get bored. Try to see something new. Keep voting for Zahid you people. He's the BEST! AFUNDI Zahid
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| posted by efarina @ 3:00 PM |
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| Thursday, July 15, 2004 |
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Another big news. I am retiring from my basketball career. I have lost my passion in it last semester because there's no more fun in it. It's all about improving skills and the ability not being able to give my full commitment that I think I'd better quit before I start hating the game.
And Spiderman sucks. 1 and 2. What lame lines they have for a superhero movie. They should learn from X-men moviemakers. I don't know how Spiderman can get good reviews. Pure cliche commentors who don't know ingredients of a good movie. You suck.
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| posted by efarina @ 7:29 PM |
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| E | Earthy | | F | Flirtatious | | A | Appealing | | R | Refreshing | | I | Inspirational | | N | Neglected | | A | Astounding |
| How to make a efarina |
Ingredients:
3 parts intelligence
3 parts brilliance
1 part ego |
Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Serve with a slice of sadness and a pinch of salt. Yum! |
What a bunch of crap these two above. I guess the quiz generator is not good enough. I'm bored. Enough said of why I am doing this. I wanna go watch Fahrenheit 9/11 and The Terminal! But daymn I have no car. I wish I was in KL rite now. |
| posted by efarina @ 3:38 PM |
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| Sunday, July 11, 2004 |
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Ever watched Akademi Fantasia? Honestly speaking, I am never a fan of this kind of show. First of all, Malay songs and Malay singers don't impress me that much. And all those old singing contests such as Sinaran has never been able to produce excellent singers. I'm sorry but Senario is never particularly an A class entertainers.
But recently, I noticed that music industry in Malaysia has improved gradually. I came back to Malaysia last year summer and got to know some of the newcomers, whom to my surprise have impressive vocals. I am still a no big fan of many Malaysian songs but I cannot deny of the strong vocals these newcomers posess.
I've started watching Akademi Fantasia last year when I have the mercy to hang out at my best friend's house often and get a glimpse of Astro. Quite interestingly, I found that many of the contestants were good singers. And the way Astro approached this reality show is very unique. This year Akademi Fantasia is even better. I have the chance to watch some of Week 3 & Week 4 concerts, downloaded via a website and I quite enjoyed the performance. They even pulled out dance moves this year! You should definitely pay attention to Zahid (especially), Linda and Zarina as I think these three are the most exceptional. Things really have changed since I left for the States, huh?
It's good that Malaysia now has many local talented singers. I just wish we can have excellent Malay songs too. |
| posted by efarina @ 10:33 PM |
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| Thursday, July 08, 2004 |
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WISA World Cup Soccer Tournament is just two months away. This time, WISA aims to make it bigger than last year. I have to start calling all the businesses on State Street to ask for funding. It's gonna be a very busy week...
My Manchester United T-Shirts have arrived early this week. Cun cun! I like! Now I can't wait for the match them against Bayern Munich this July 25th.
I just realized today how much I am like my father. My taste in music, my taste in sports, my taste in electronic stuffs, my taste on guys...are all affected by this great man. I am proud to be..like father, like daughter ;) |
| posted by efarina @ 3:08 PM |
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| Tuesday, July 06, 2004 |
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Fcuking Digital System. Of all the classes that I have taken in my whole life, this is the worst and the most vague. Not understanding is another matter. But not being able to see at all what is being taught is like going to Africa and not understanding Swahili language. This class is even worse than Economics & Biology (so far my worst subjects). At least, for those two subjects, I was able to see what was going on even though I couldn't grasp and memorize the facts effectively. But NOT seeing and NOT being able to do a SINGLE question! Should I have to drop this subject, what's the point of staying during summer? And I have an exam for this shitty this Thursday.
On another subject, some of my friends and I went to Rythm & Booms last night to watch the popular 4th of July fireworks. |
| posted by efarina @ 7:34 PM |
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| Monday, July 05, 2004 |
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Hah! After being depressed and moody for a few weeks, I finally decided to call it quits. No more working at the library. You must think I'm nuts. People say working as circ desk assistant is a piece of cake: not tiring, you can do your homeworks, and barely no one to bug you unless for checking books in and out. Yeah, they are probably right. But being a Taurean sucks coz Taurean care too much about other people, and they get bored easily.
And I am one of that unlucky Taurean. I don't like the feeling I have everytime patrons ask questions and I can't answer it. All those bullshits about law that I don't know about. "Can you tell me where I can find journals about the government courts bla bla bla?" "Can I take a look at the Appellate nutshell? I don't know the call number though" "Do you have books or bindery about the judiciary law?" I feel like a loser when I couldn't locate a book they're trying to find. I hate it even more when they just leave the desk because they don't want to wait any longer. I don't know if it's my fault that I couldn't help them or it's theirs since they don't provide enough information for me to find what they want. But one way or the other, I am still a useless prick, aren't I? Sitting at the desk, sucking the hours doing nothing but surfing the net, and won't be able to help these patrons for one small matter and feel like I have let the whole world down.
I haven't been happy for a long time. Not since I came back from Malaysia last year. But I'm a little bit happy now because for once, I've made the right choice by quitting the job. It's not an utterly bliss, but it will do for the time being. |
| posted by efarina @ 2:43 PM |
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| Sunday, July 04, 2004 |
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So Greece is the new shocking champion. Who would have guessed they made this far? I'm so upset that Portugal lost in the final Euro 2004. I'm even more upset that I missed the final 2 minutes of the game and the cup celebration because of.... something. But, Figo, product of 'golden generation' is still my hero :p. At age of 32, he proved to still be the best even though this may be his final international game. I hope for a better Portugal for the next Euro Championship.
I'm sorry if I am a bit emotional during the game but you annoy me at the wrong time. I have had enough of people upsetting me during the past week. Do not push me to the verge of tears again. And I don't mean to slam the door so hard; I have to leave before everyone notice. You'll understand. |
| posted by efarina @ 6:28 PM |
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| Thursday, July 01, 2004 |
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I've been overweight. For a long time. I've been thin. For a short time. And I've been fat again. Now. I know people talk behind my back. Some say it out loud. It's a disease that no one can stop. I don't know why though. Is it a sin that you have more fat in your body than normal thin people do? As long as you do not reach obesity and are not in the brink of having blood clot, I do not see anything wrong.
But of course some people don't. Especially those who HAS NOT been overweight their whole life. I get sick hearing their stupid jokes. I get even madder that those thin people think that they're fat just because he/she sees a few lines of cellulite on her thigh. How do you know?! You are never fat your entire life. Just because you're fatter doesn't mean you're fat, freak.
I never have the heart to be like these people, coz I've been the victim. They don't know how hurtful it is to hear your schoolmate giving a nasty smile at you and say "You're damn fat, that's why", when you cannot run faster. That is why when thin people say I am fat, I feel sick. That is why when thin people say other people are fat, I feel sicker. And that is why when fat people ask me whether they're really that fat, I feel the sickest.
I am tired of all their jokes. I am tired of this depression. I may smile and laugh but that doesn't mean I am happy. I know I'm fat and ugly. You don't have to tell me. And you don't have to make fun of other fat people too. For your sin is worse than this fat. |
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